I'm Alive

A few months ago I wrote a blog called 'Grief and Wonder'. The grief part is weird because I suddenly was hit by another small wave of that tonight. The loss I spoke of in that blog was of a dear friend who was an amazing person, and who is safely in the arms of Jesus now. I know she loves to sing and is probably now worshiping with her beautiful voice for this awesome time of year that represents Christ love that brought her to eternity in heaven.
It was a tragic accident, it still doesn't even seem as if it could be real at times because she was so full of life and always embracing it. Odd how often the people who most grasp how precious life here is are the ones who seem to see to little of it. I still don't understand why things like this happen, but I press on to know more He who does. I believe that He truly does work all things for the good of those who love Him, and yet will continue to see beauty through her short life I was blessed to be part of.
My whole point of this blog though, is that I'm still here. God has a reason for this jar of clay here, I have much to be doing and have received much love that I am supposed to be sharing with a desperate world. This life is just a breath, my friend embraced it and breathed so deeply what she was given. She touched so many peoples lives, she was one of the most caring people I have ever met. My desire and goal is to be a person so alive in body and soul, because this life is so short and how I live now can affect how I and others live out eternity. She lived a life that seemed to me to always reflect joy and love, she spent her few days here very much alive. Tonight I just asked God as I was thinking of her and crying for this loss, 'what?' The answer is: this life is about Love, and I'm alive. For those of us still looking forward to the day we see heaven, we still have a lot to do on this side.